Long absence and new measurements

Helllooooo. Long time no write!

So, things have been sort of frustrating these past few weeks. I was measured about three weeks ago and not only did I not have any changes, I actually gained, like a third of an inch around my waist! I was not happy. But it did motivate me to sort of tighten up on my eating. I’ve still be fucking up on that…but I’m really trying to keep a moderate diet. I try to make sure that I don’t eat processed foods at the very least, and I think I’m about 80% successful at that.

Funny thing, though…my weight was stable.

I still haven’t lost anything, though. However, Saturday’s measurements were better.

To be honest, I think that to see more changes weight-wise (and more changes with the measurements) I need to change my diet again. I think that recently I’ve been living under the erroneous impression that one diet change was going to solve everything…but it’s dawning on me that to be successful…I need to keep changing and modifying what I eat. Maybe after I finally reach my goal I can keep the same diet.

So…on to the good stuff.

I’m basing the losses here on the last measurements from 7/21. Like always, total losses will be in parenthesis.

Neck: no loss (-1.5)

Upper arm: +.25 (-2.75)

Chest: no change (-3.5)

Waist: -1 (-6.5)

Hips: -.5 (-5.5)

Upper Thigh: no change (-3)

Calves: no change (-1.5)

Total: -1.5 (-24.25)

So, I’m stoked about the waist measurement. That’s the one that counts for me (although, having a smaller ass would be nice, too) and that’s the one that’s in the lead. I have to keep telling myself that I’ve lost 24.25 inches all over my body and that even though the weight is still not budging…I HAVE BEEN MAKING POSITIVE PROGRESS.

I have a doctor’s appointment at the end of the month to sort of see why my weight hasn’t been moving for all the progress I’ve been making on my body size.

So…it’s pretty much business as usual. Weight loss is sorta boring…nothing like the drastic “before” and “after” crap that media pushes on us all the time. But, I’m telling myself (as have other people) that the slower I go, the better of a chance I have of keeping it off. However, I tried running again. This time it was a lot easier…and for several reasons. One was that I now have athletic insoles…which has helped me overall with my regular workouts. Another is that I stopped to stretch between every other 60 second jog. I’m going to keep this up at least once a week (if I can make myself get out there to do it…that’s the real trick) until I can finish the run without stopping. And, the other reason it was so easy was that the track was recently resurfaced with new rubber! It’s all nice and bouncy and smells like a new tennis shoe.

So…that’s it. It’s all just a boring uphill battle. LOL.

Let’s try this…

Soooo. My abs are KILLING ME. My trainer, Rachel, had me doing these absurdly difficult things that inspired many a whine from me. All the same…it hurts in a good way I guess. I swear to God…I have a six pack under all this flab. LOL.

 

Anyhoo. As of the last time I weighed in…I had lost three pounds since the previous weigh in which was a month before that. I think.

 

And previous to that…the weight just doesn’t want to come off.

 

I know this is verging into TMI territory, but hear me out. A couple of days ago Aunt Flow came to visit after a six month absence. This has been the norm for the last year or two. I had been diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) many years ago, so irregularity isn’t anything new. But twice a year is a little…ridiculous.

 

One of the ladies in my online weight loss community made a comment about how PCOS could be a reason why my body is having a hard time letting the weight go. Considering all that I’ve read about PCOS being strongly linked to insulin resistance and insulin resistance being linked to being overweight and that whole circle…it made sense to me that PCOS could be playing a negative role here.

 

*lightbulb over head*

 

She mentioned that she has been taking Metformin for PCOS, and it has helped her.

 

So, when I get back from my weekend camping trip, I’ll be making an appointment to go see a doctor and see if maybe I can get fixed up here. I don’t see medication like this as a weight loss solution, but if it helps me become regular and avoid cervical cancer or whatever…please! Gimmie! If it assisted in a little more weight lost, that would be an added bonus of course.

 

As I complained to my trainer last night, I should be seeing just a little more consistency in the weight loss than I have been seeing. I lost a lot of weight at first, but now it’s just not budging. So…that’s that.

 

Overall, the pounds aren’t a measurement of my success and I know that. I’ve lost a good number of inches around my waist, I’m building muscle, my clothes are fitting better/getting baggy, and I feel better. I’m learning new habits and I’m learning the difference between hunger and the need to binge. That’s the measure of my success.

 

However. Weight really is a part of it. So, if that number isn’t changing, then I do need to do something to get it going.

 

So.

 

Yeah. J