It happens every time. I think I’m doing so great and that I’ve got it all right…and then, I see the photos and…reality check! I’m nowhere close to doing anything perfectly, I’m still learning. I think it’s really important for me to not let myself get ahead of myself. There’s an ounce of humility I need to take from my reality check.

So…the things I CAN be happy about that are real results and not something I’ve conjured up in my head:

1. I feel thin.
2. I lose inches consistently.
3. I’ve already lost about twenty five pounds.
4. I’m smart enough to know when I’m living in denial.
5. I’ve made my health a true priority…mentally, emotionally, and financially.

Compared with how I looked at the beginning of all this in October, I can definitely see a difference. But from February to now…I just can’t see it. But this is actually motivation for me to do more. And, I’ve got a plan. It’s small…but I can do it. The fifth one I’m not going to push myself on, but I’m still going to move in that direction.

1. Take a brisk 30 minute walk on Tuesdays and Thursdays when I’m not working out.
2. Add even more fresh food to my diet, including more protein.
3. Continue keeping a daily food journal.
4. Stop watching all the weight-loss-by-surgery and super-morbidly-obese-spectacle shows.
5. Start hiking again on the weekends…maybe find a club I can join so I can do it with people who want to hike instead of making my friends come with me.
6. Oh…and get more sleep.

All this lifestyle-changing is hard. *sigh* I need a boost!!

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i think i’m going to start going to a nutritionist. hopefully insurance would cover it. i’m ready to get even more serious with my diet.